“I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love, because You have seen my affliction. You have known the distress of my soul.” Psalm 31:7
“Trust and obey, for there’s no other way, to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.”
Running through my head were these words from a favorite childhood song—a song that I hadn’t sung or even heard for 20, maybe 30, years. I was trying to get some desperately needed sleep, but the words and melody of this song kept playing over and over in my head. Another round of coughing left me sitting up and fully awake. It was then I realized the song in my head was the Holy Spirit at work, trying to convey those healing words to me.
To set the stage, I had been suffering from a serious case of bronchitis. My constant coughing had changed sleep into an elusive luxury. But that night, as I lay in bed, crying out to the Lord to deliver me from my misery and quiet the cough, I began to realize He wanted to deliver me from much more. His sweet, tender Spirit was bringing an understanding to my heart. The words of the song held the answer to strongholds I had been battling.
I had felt I was on a hopeless circular path—one with no escape. The enemy had convinced me that I wasn’t good enough to gain any sustainable delivery from these chains binding my soul. But as the words began to sink deep into my heart—”Trust AND Obey”—it all clicked. I realized that because I had allowed fear to reign, I had not trusted God as I should. To put it simply, if you don’t trust someone, you don’t obey them!
God was saying to me, “I want to take your fear, so you can trust me. Then obedience will come much easier.”
Now, I no longer need to waste time and energy blaming the wounds from my past, or continuing to trip over my own insecurities. Jesus stands in the gap. Praise God from whom all blessings flow.